So, tomorrow morning I'm going to be getting my surgery done. I'm feeling a lot better about it all. There were a few hard days, namely yesterday and Tuesday, when it actually hit me that I am going through with it all. I am feeling upheld by the prayers of everyone around me and much more ready to do this thing! :)
Thank you everyone for all your kind thoughts thus far, I know there will be more, and I so appreciate it more than you all could ever realise it. God has blessed me big time with great friends and family and I sense that He is really in control of this thing. I certainly don't feel able to do it alone.
My father in law arrives tonight so that we have someone to watch the girls, I'm needing to leave super early tomorrow morning (need to get to the surgical centre by 7.30am). So it's good to know that someone will be home making sure they all get breakfast and go to school etc. He will be staying until Wednesday, which should be the day I come out of hospital, and then he is taking the girls back to start their Christmas/Summer holidays early. Thank God for good families! :)
This is one of the scariest things I've ever had to decide on and it helps to know that it's the right thing for me to do. It has been a funny thing to decide on, mainly because I do have the choice. If I had cancer, that choice would have been taken from me. So it is a very powerful thing. Taking back my life from the fear of cancer is very empowering.
So, yeah, I do appreciate ALL of your prayers and well wishes. They're what is carrying me through at the moment, until I see you at the other side! :)